I Miss My Kids

As a new chapter developed in my new book, 'Beyond the Signs', there must be sadness as well as happiness.

When my oldest son’s birthday came along a few days ago, I thought to myself, ‘Piss on it’. I haven’t seen him in eighteen years. I have a granddaughter whom I have never met. My other son is a Small Animal Veterinarian in Phoenix, AZ. – as far as I know.

My mom went to Heaven wishing to see her grandchildren again.

Until Next Time

–Kirk–

It's Going to Take a While

It's no matter why some people go off the deep end and end up... Well, let's just say that some persons would see those individuals as abnormal. Some even say, "Nuts, they all need to be in  a mental institution."

As I was sitting on the toilet tonight, staring at my tablet, the thought crossed my mind of how many times I had to take shelter in a public bathroom and was ridiculed by others who were obviously more well off that I.

Think on that for a spell.

-Kirk Toncray

Writing is an art, just like singing or painting a picture. Sometimes when I write, it gets a little too close to some people's feelings – me included. – It's been a long time since I have written on this blog and there are reasons. I have asked friends to help me with the conclusion of Beyond The Signs, and the only response I get is, "It's not done yet."

Until Later,

–Kirk Toncray

Understanding

The more I attempt to write, “Beyond the Signs,” the more of jumbled up fricken mess it becomes. There are so many people wanting to hear a conclusion but the fact of the matter is – there is no conclusion. This is how life goes and for some, it is even more of a challenge than most would like to admit. Today, for instance, I walked to the bank and followed a man who was pushing his bicycle while holding a duffle bag in one hand and had a backpack slung over his other arm. Poking out of the backpack was a sleeping bag. Need I say more?

As I exited the bank and began my day’s journey, I passed that man who was sitting in the sunshine and spreading his blankets and sleeping bag to dry out. I walked a little farther then glanced back and saw Springfield Police asking him questions. The man did not appear high or drunk to me, just cold and wanting to dry his things out in the warm sun. Where’s the crime?

Until Later,

–Kirk Toncray

After All This Time

After All This Time

When I released Behind the Signs, I hoped the book would touch a few hearts. Apparently, it is still reaching people and sending a signal that will never be forgotten. I walk every day to maintain my health and people yell at me, “Hey Kirk!” I feel bad because I recognize the faces but I cannot put a name to these persons. “I read your book,” is a what I usually hear. “It touched my heart.”

That’s what it’s all about.

–Kirk Toncray

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I haven't blogged for quite a while. Holiday seasons are very difficult for me for reasons I will not disclose. One of the best things we can do as loving human beings is to drop all of our selfishness, our competitiveness, forget about NASCAR, NFL, NBA and really, truly, look into the mirror and ask yourself, "Is this the person I really am, or could I do more?"

Later,
–Kirk

Something Must Be Done

Dear Senator Wyden;

This email is being sent to you as the Social Security Administration is on the federal level but I am also contacting our governor, John Kitzhaber, as the Child Support Program is on the state level. I am disabled and receive Supplemental Security Income. The SSA encourages individuals to obtain gainful employment as much as possible. I receive $721 per month in SSI. I visited the website and called the SSA about returning to work, part time, as much as my personal disability will allow. I learned that any money I earn will be deducted from my SSI income

Here’s the tricky part; I owe several thousand dollars in back child support. This cannot be deducted from my SSI but up to 50% can be garnished from any earned income that I receive. This ultimately means I would need to work full time, which I cannot, and earn $14 per hour to break even to what I receive from SSI. I strive to better myself, and be an asset instead of a liability, but these circumstances prevent it.

Thank You,
Robert Kirk Toncray